The fact of God's help from Ekaterina 20.06.2024

Hello, dear brothers and sisters! Honestly, I feel ashamed to write this, but I hope my testimony helps someone! For several years, I have been praying for a husband and wondering, "Why hasn’t the Lord sent him yet?" Now, I finally understand… Some time ago, I found myself in a situation where my relationship with a friend became spiritually unhealthy. It wasn’t physical sin, but spiritually—it absolutely was. I was tormented by extreme emotions, swinging between deep love for him and complete disgust—both toward him and myself. The question of "Is this a sin or not?" troubled me greatly. I started listening to more sermons and reading Orthodox literature. I decided to pray the Akathist to the Mother of God, "Seeker of the Lost," for both myself and him. That’s when I realized that sins like self-indulgence and watching inappropriate films—which I had struggled with for nearly 10 years—were also forms of fornication. But now, for almost six months, I have felt no desire for any of it—it’s as if it has been cut off completely. As for him, he ended up losing his job and home and went back to the mother of his child, with whom he had rarely lived since the child’s birth. I continue praying for him—that he marries her and comes to faith. And now, in my own life, an Orthodox man has appeared—one who is asking for my hand in marriage.